So, between handing in and putting up my degree show next week, I have a little time to reflect.
I think the biggest surprise for me has been feeling like the hand in isn't the end of the project - there's a lot more I want to do leading on from the work I produced. I always assumed that by the end of third year I'd be ready, with work that was ready, to say, "Hello World, this is what I do!". But I'm not, and I'm happy about that. I still have a lot to figure out, which is great because it means I'm fully intent on developing my practice further, pushing myself and seeing what else I can apply myself to.
It feels like a starting point, but a really promising one (unlike starting points in more minor projects). There's a lot I want to do, and that excites me.
- I want to look at applying my work to print design. All this year I've been looking at kimono designs a lot, and there's a really narrative and playful quality to a lot of the print design (particularly for children's kimonos), and I can imagine my own work being applicable to this.
- Painting. I've dabbled a little in painting this year, but in previous years I've done more and I used to love it. But I've never delved deep enough into it to even get reasonably good at it, so I'd like to invest some time in that.
- Drawing. I love drawing, and it features a lot in my work. But lately it's always been part of something else, and I think it would be really beneficial to immerse myself in just drawing for a bit, spend some quality time with pencil and paper and focus on portraiture and architecture - things I've often wished I was better at drawing.
- Theatre. I think Zoo Case Theatre has unrealised potential, and I'd like to spend some time developing this.
- I'd also like to do some more hand embroidery, because I know I'm pretty decent at it, but I've neglected it lately.
Hopefully I will find some time to do these things, but I have to find a way of making a living. I have a summer job coming up, working with 16 year olds on the NCS project, which should be amazing, and will hopefully lead to more opportunities.
Reaching this point feels so different to how I imagined it would. I thought I'd be terrified. I'm not.
I see all my shortcomings as opportunities to better myself, as opportunities for future achievement.
Basically, what I've realised, is there was never any rush to get everything done before graduation. I hopefully have a long life ahead of me, and I intend to fill that life with learning.